I Am So Free I Get To Feel Caged
I left my job about a month ago. And I am still working myself to exhaustion, but I don’t have the job to blame anymore!
I am so free that I get to feel caged. I am so free that I get to choose to overwork myself. I am so free that I am free to feel like I am not free at all.
What if we radically chose to believe that we are and always have been free. Yes, I know, all the thoughts are coming up to contradict this claim. Let them! Let all the thoughts come up and as they come up, remember that you are free. Totally and unrestrictedly free!
So…if you are absolutely and unquestioningly free…what would you freely choose to stop doing?
I chose to not go driving for Lyft tomorrow and instead let myself get a good night’s sleep, catch up on some work (like writing this article!) and catch up on some housework. As soon as I decided that, my nervous system calmed, my body softened (which I didn’t realize how tense it actually had been) and my creativity started flowing.
I also chose to believe that the money is going to work itself out. That money will find it’s way to me in very large amounts. I used to think that when I was low on money I had to worry. I couldn’t possible be happy, abundant and joyful when money is low. But guess what? I get to do, feel and be whatever the hell I want!
Why?
BECAUSE I AM FREEEEEEEE!!!!!
An interesting thing happens when we allow ourself to embrace our Freedom. We begin to bring awareness to what we actually align with.
When I first did this with food I ate tacos from SomeBurros every day for a week only to realize I didn’t actually want tacos every day like I thought I did when I was restricting myself from eating them. Turns out I actually like eating fruits and veggies because they make my body feel really good! But I wouldn’t have realized that unless I let myself have the freedom I was so scared to give myself.
What else would change if I let myself truly surrender to freedom? To do the thing or let the thing happen that I am afraid of. Because the fear is gone once it happens and I am either left with an amazing experience or some deep learning. Win win situation to me.
I invite you to practice radical Freedom. I also invite that radical freedom to include not harming anyone. Do the scary thing. Say what you have been wanting to say. Stop holding back. And remember, you are also free to hold yourself back, too.
With so much Sacred and Wild Love,
Jenn
