I’m done living Life to it’s fullest…

“Live Life to the fullest” is a phrase I’ve heard over and over again. It’s a phrase I did my best to live by. But I’m done now.

I’ve recently realized that, while I live a very full Life, that can be a very different thing from experiencing Life.

For me, I was so busy trying to create the Life of my dream that I almost missed the reality that I did it! Thankfully, a walk in the Mountain behind my Home was the Medicine I needed to bring that to my awareness.

As I walked through my Mountain Teacher on New Year’s Day I was literally brought to my knees in tears as I realized that I did it. I fucking created a Life for myself that just a few years ago seemed like a far off Dream.

Today, a few days after New Years, I got in my car with my breakfast and was planning on doing some driving for Lyft since last night was a bit slow. But instead I drove half an hour north down a canyon and backed my car to the scene pictured to have breakfast.

I get to do this in my Life. I get to listen to music that touches me so deeply tears regularly stream down my face. I get to live in a house that is on Sacred Land and has been turned into a small retreat center, complete with ice bath, sauna, singing bowls, plants everywhere and a mountain a 5 minute walk away.

I get to have a job that gives me flexibility and I get to manifest enough money to support me, my two children and my Momma.

ME!!! I GET TO LIVE THIS LIFE. This Life of service and devotion. A life where I can feel and hear my ancestors with me always and in all ways. This Life where I have teachers EVERYWHERE and in EVERYONE!

So…I’m done living Life to it’s fullest and I AM now EXPERIENCING Life in it’s fullest.